💔 I Am Not Your Body Story

Some girls tear down other girls as if we’re public property. I don’t play that game.


I’ve always heard girls support girls.

It’s a cute phrase. A hashtag. A thing you say.

But here’s what happened to me.
The other day, I was chilling—literally, I was high on shrooms, vibing, unbothered—and I had to tell this younger girl and her little posse that they weren’t invited to my house.
Simple boundary. Calm energy. I was trying to relax.

But apparently, that wasn’t allowed.

Later, she sent me this nasty message—like went out of her way to say something mean—and she made sure to tell me that in a picture I posted, my arm looked “fat” to her.

Let’s pause there.
Because it didn’t. It literally didn’t.
I have a small frame. My body is genetically small. My arm looked normal.

But that wasn’t the point, was it?
It was never about my arm.

It was about trying to hurt me.

It was about reaching for the fastest weapon girls are taught to grab—your body.

Even when it doesn’t make sense. Even when it’s a lie. Even when it’s the weakest possible swing.

Because that’s what some girls do:
They’ll strike at your body because they think that’s where you’ll break.
Because they’ve been taught that we’re supposed to care what they think about our arms, our stomachs, our faces, our everything.

But here’s the thing: I don’t.

I don’t care.
I’m a grown ass woman. I know what my body is.
I don’t need your commentary. I didn’t ask for your notes.

And I would never do that to another girl. I would never aim for the body. I would never weaponize appearance like that.

Because I know how brutal I already am to myself.
Because I know how much I’ve worked to get free from that kind of thinking.

Girls support girls isn’t a t-shirt. It’s a choice. It’s a practice. It’s a rebellion.
And I choose it. Every time.

Even when you’re mean to me.
Even when you try to hurt me.
Even when you send the message.

I don’t play that game.
I’m not here for that life.
I’m here for something softer. Something real.

You don’t know me.
You don’t know my story.
And you sure as heck don’t know my body.

Girls support girls isn’t a trend.
It’s a standard.
And I don’t lower mine.

A woman wearing a bright pink swimsuit and oversized sunglasses sits on a wooden deck, making a peace sign with her fingers. She has a crocheted headscarf and a necklace, with a blurred background showing a person walking in the distance.

This Was Never Supposed To Be A Blog

I didn’t set out to start a blog.
I didn’t even set out to “be a writer.”
I just needed a place to survive.

For most of the past year, I was holding myself together with painting, poetry, long walks, and a lot of hope I wasn’t sure I even believed in.
Healing was slow and messy.
It still is.

Then about a month ago, something cracked open in me.
Kind of like that scene in Forrest Gump — he just starts running one day and doesn’t stop.
That’s what happened to me.
Except instead of running across America, I started writing.
And I couldn’t stop.

I started writing memoirs about my life — the real, raw parts of growing up autistic and neurodivergent and not knowing it.
I started writing fictional stories where the main characters were like me — neurodivergent women who didn’t have to apologize for being different.

At first, I wasn’t thinking about anyone else reading it.
I wasn’t trying to be brave.
I was trying to stay alive.

Most of what I’ve written still isn’t on this blog.
It lives in notebooks, Word docs, saved drafts.
It lives inside of me.

But somewhere along the way — after sharing bits and pieces with my family and a few close friends — my mom looked at me and said, “I think you should share this. It’s important.”

And for once, I believed her.

Because here’s what I’ve realized:
People are going to judge me and misunderstand me no matter what.
Especially because I’m neurodivergent.
Especially because I move through the world differently.

For most of my life, I thought if I just stayed small enough, quiet enough, “normal” enough, I could avoid that pain.
Spoiler alert: it didn’t work.
They judged me anyway.
They misunderstood me anyway.
And I just stayed silent and let it eat me alive from the inside.

I’m not doing that anymore.

This blog is me taking my voice back.
It’s me standing up and saying:
If you’re going to misunderstand me, fine — but it won’t be because I hid.
It won’t be because I stayed silent.
It won’t be because I let fear win.

Sharing my writing started as an act of survival.
Now it’s also an act of rebellion.
It’s an act of love — for myself, for my community, for anyone who’s ever been made to feel like their voice doesn’t matter.

The beautiful part?
The surprise I didn’t even see coming?
My words have actually helped people.
They’ve made people feel seen.
They’ve made people cry, and laugh, and think.
And that’s all I’ve ever wanted:
To make the world a little softer.
A little freer.
A little more human.

I also realized I can’t just tell my story without telling the bigger story too.
Neurodiversity matters.
Representation matters.
Advocacy matters.

Most people don’t even know what “neurodivergent” means.
Most people have a cartoon version of autism or ADHD in their heads that hurts real people every single day.
And I’m tired of being silent about that too.

This blog is my small way of pushing back against a world that doesn’t want to listen —
and creating a new space where maybe, just maybe, someone will.

It’s also about education.
It’s about fighting for teachers, students, and schools that are being crushed under systems that don’t care about them.
I left teaching as a career because it was killing me — but I didn’t leave it as a passion.
And now that I’m standing on the outside, breathing again, I feel like it’s my responsibility to use whatever strength I have left to fight for the people still inside.

Education is a human right.
Neurodivergent people deserve to be understood, not “fixed.”
Mental health isn’t optional.
Workers deserve better than barely surviving in broken systems.
Women deserve autonomy over their bodies and their lives.
We all deserve better.

This blog isn’t big.
It’s not loud.
But it’s mine.
And it’s honest.
And it’s full of heart.

If it helps even one person feel seen —
if it plants even one seed for change —
then it’s worth it.

Thank you for being here.
Thank you for reading.
Thank you for listening.

I’m just getting started. 💛

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